Last night you could have found me in the bathroom with white strips on my teeth, exfoliator on my face, and nail polish all over the counter...girls gotta look good for Saturday! How in the world there are 5 days before I marry that sweet man of mine blows my mind, it truly does. The time since December 2nd until now has truly gone by in a flash. I have only 5 days left to be a fiancé. Practically everything is done for the wedding, just a few little things to take care of this week and while I know there's going to be a lot going on, I'm not going to let this time pass me by without soaking it all in.
I find myself having a hard time to even find the words to say as I'm so close to getting married. My heart is overflowing with thoughts and love for Josh. I am in awe that God has brought our relationship this far and prepared us for marriage. What a beautiful thing that is. What a beautiful thing marriage is. I can't wait to stand before all of our family and friends and commit my life to the one I love most. I can't wait to enter into the covenant with him that God has created for us, as man and wife. In our last pre-martial counseling session we discussed the covenant and how Josh and I were going to make it public to our family and friends that we are going to try as hard as possible to love each other as God loves the church. That we are committing ourselves exclusively to one as another as God has committed Himself to His people and to the church. God gave us the most precious ability to love one another. We would never even know what love is if He wouldn't have blessed us with that emotion. Oh how thankful I am that we were given the ability to love by the one who shows us the ultimate love, day in and day out.
He loves me in my best and throughout my worst and I will love Josh everyday...in his best and throughout his worst. The Lord forgives me even when I am so undeserving...I'll forgive Josh when he is completely undeserving as I know he'll forgive me when I'm completely undeserving. My heart is overwhelmed when I think about Josh and I having our marriage as a display of God's love for His people...and it makes me want to work hard everyday to make our marriage as fulfilled as it can be to show that others that marriages can make it and our marriage is a display of Gods love and a testament to how much He loves his people.
This week I'm going to spend a lot of time with the Lord, reflecting on the past 3 years of my dating life with Josh and reflecting on the past 9 months of our engagement. This is such a sweet time in our lives and I want to soak every single second up.